Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Watching Kung Fu Hustle


I'm busy counting breaths and heartbeats instead of reading and writing mail. 


This is the first thing you see when you open the door. It reminds me of my immortality so I try not to whine. I want to though because it's just not fair.


This is where I spent most of my day. It's meant for sleeping. Not lying propped up struggling for breath, waiting for my pulse to slow down, not scratching hives. I have to turn the volume up to drown out wheezes. My favorite Olympians did not win gold today because I couldn't cheer them on. I was too tired to care much. I'm still proud of them though. 


A single letter from last night didn't make it to the post office. JC asked if I had take-out but I didn't feel like moving, so I said no. He brought bunches of mail several times last week, so he thinks he should check more frequently. I think he gets a kick out of seeing me get a kick out of how good y'all are about writing. I promise to scan some of the stacks you've sent when I feel better. I get so caught up with trying to write back, to send "just a note to let you know I haven't forgotten I owe you a letter" notes that I fall behind in posting incoming. All this feels like old times. If Patty, Misty, Elle and the rest of the good 'uns who dropped out were to return, why it would be like a reunion. 

But anyway . . . Please, please, please, do not send me scented mail. I won't open it from now on. No perfume samples, no perfumed inks, no scented stationery, no scented hand lotion . . . Chemical sensitivity is a burden I try to bear with grace and dignity. My airway closes, I cannot breathe, I itch, my skin burns, I have giant hives, my nose runs, my ears ache, my vision blurs, my tastebuds stop working, my body swells . . . Yes, inhalers, nasal sprays, and oral antihistamines help most of the time, but I end up in the ER too. I need breathing treatments and adrenaline that makes my heart race. Each episode takes an emotional and a physical toll. 

I'm stuck watching "Kung Fu Hustle," working hard not to laugh because breathing is a labor, and I'm feeling sorry for myself. And my vision is too blurred to read the subtitles! Dang. I forgot to rinse my mouth. Dang it! Stop sending me smelly ^&$#! I don't send you stinky stuff! Do unto me as I do unto y'all. 


8 comments:

  1. Oh my dear I hope you feel better soon . My mail lady wears a lot of perfume and she is always wiping her hands with lotion . I'm wondering if some of that got your way . I have asked her to stop touching my mail and use latex gloves that way she doe not transmit anything and she said she would try to remember . Try ? really you don't think that is important enough ? But anyways I hope you feel better soon I think from now on I will send your mail from the post office at my hardware store dear to protect you from such misery . I know I have the same thing with people who wear the heavy stuff to the grocery for the rest of us to breath in . Please everyone stop wearing perfumes that are heavy to the grocery . Else my dear friend and I cannot breathe . thanks . Limner we all love you take care dear and I pray you feel better soon .

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    1. Thank you. More and more doctors have signs in waiting room to ask patients not to wear perfumes because more and more people are sickened by artificial scents. It takes me longer to rebound from asthma attacks. I did not have asthma as a child. It began with an overload of chemicals when our clinic was being remodeled; my immune system was weakened from formaldehyde, solvents and other chemicals.

      You know what it feels like, so I appreciate that. Thanks for caring.

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  2. Oh poor you.......feel better soon......I hate scented mail myself........

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    1. Poor old me. :) Those inhalers cost $43 bucks and they're for rescue. That doesn't mean they always work, so I do end up having to have medicine delivered via IV in the ER. I hope no one ever has to have an IV at the base of their thumb and just above the wrists because nurses and doctors can't find a vein due to swelling.

      I'm sure people mean well when they send scented mail but I like living more than anything. :)

      Thanks.

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  3. Do rest! You can catch up on things later, but rest now. Take care!

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    1. I'm being so good I can hardly stand it. LOL. Americans tend to think rest is for other people. Had I taken better care when I was ill in my young woman years I wouldn't be having so much down time now. :) I sure enjoyed running and hiking and walking and dancing and all the other stuff I cannot do very well now. LOL. But thank you for compounding doc's advice.

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